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I'm tired of doubting myself.
I'm tired of feeling inferior to everyone else.
I'm tired of being told I can't.
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This account is here simply because I'm sick of it. I hate always feeling so insecure about my art, and I've decided that's a mental block I want to get over.

I want to start fresh--no pressure, no watchers, nothing.

Here, I'm going to just draw. I'm going to stop only drawing certain things, only because I'm too scared of being "bad" at something else that I never try.

Yes, I probably WILL be bad, but I'll never get BETTER if I don't PRACTICE.

So here's me trying.

I am going to experiment--coloring style, drawing style, etc. I am right now not aiming for perfect consistency, but rather on finding a style that is comfortable for me.

I'm going to just go for it and try my hand at comics and graphic novels.

I'm going to finally illustrate that book for my little cousin that I promised her instead of always stopping before I begin because I'm too scared I'll fail to even start.

I'm going to finally try all the things I've not done before, simply because my own insecurity got in the way.

But I realized something (finally)--I have already failed by not trying at all. By giving up before starting, I've actually failed WORSE than if I had given it my all and not made it.

But that stops now.

So if you feel like watching my floudering attempts at fully immersing myself in the art world, by all means go ahead and watch me. Or maybe you're simply a nice soul who would like to offer critique--by all means, go right ahead!

Or maybe you don't care at all, and that's fine too.

Because I'm doing this for me. Because I need to know. And if I give up now, the question will always be there, eating away at the back of my mind--what might I have accomplished if only I had tried?
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If you can dream it, you can do it.
--Walt Disney